Exit Cranium

by Wolf Castle

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released January 23, 2016

Special Thanks to:

Brandon Eugene Owens
Nate Mercereau
Charles Duff
Frank Knuckles
Brent Jasperse
Carey Clayton
Will Allen
Tim Vickers
Yuki Hirano
Jesse Adams
Jimmie Westwood
Phyllis Grant
Felicia Grant
Christopher Grant
Raymond Sewell
River Caplin

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2 time ECMA Nominated Rapper from Pabineau First Nation.

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Track Name: It Was Real
It was real
And then it was a dream...
Track Name: Marble Mind
[Verse 1]
I guess my 15 is up
Y'all people've had enough
Some people said I was nothing
Others were acting up
Nessie's got her lock on and I wanna duck
Heat seeking missile I've become corrupt
Wish i gave a fuck about the words you rehearse
That's the thing I'm the worst I ignore my own words
Always felt like a Martian in the world
A visitor, misplaced inquisitor
Off-White, Red Skin, Blue blood
True thug or, a kid who just wanted to be seen
Sinking my teeth in the next best thing
Acting all tough like what does it mean
Flows change from spring to fall
Eradicate an original thought
So afraid of being myself
Do I chant, sing or dance my ancestral wealth

[Hook]
Just a chip off my marble mind
Everyday pretending to be fine
Take the time to find rhymes
For style arrives blind I'm feeling like I'm one of a kind
Just a chip off my marble mind
For the peace i can't combine
Take the time to find rhymes
For style arrives blind I've never been one of a kind


[Verse 2]
Now I got my ex's facing depression
Talking to the mirror it's making me restless
How I'm moving on, cleaning up my messes
While she down low, I left her wish less
A strong girl but she don't know it
Asking bout college what she do for diplomas
She just learned how to make ends meet cause
Music ain't shit and a girl's gotta eat
We all crash down
Why am I in the biz if I can't touchdown
I'm on the floor all alone in a dirty coat
Loving my life is a but rollercoast
Mood swings like Mayweather
In the jaw It's glass and it ain't strong
I've only just learned how to be
In a right hand world with two left feet

[Hook]
Just a chip off my marble mind
Everyday pretending to be fine
Take the time to find rhymes
For style arrives blind I'm feeling like I'm one of a kind
Just a chip off my marble mind
For the peace i can't combine
Take the time to find rhymes
For style arrives blind I've never been one of a kind

[Verse 3]
I'm a monotone psychopath
A sheep skipping through Alcatraz
And the hall's so full I'm trippin' on bulls
And they tugging at my leg tryna get a good pull
What's a fear to attaining 6 figures
Grand visions in a polaroid picture
Old school I was trained by the old fools
I had doubts, jousts in the whirlpool
And my legs feel weak
Gaining this weight cause me and dad don't speak
I'm shaving all alone in my apartment
Partly out of spite I lose the grip on my harness
Art is, the last strap holding onto me
Time to bust the fear and set myself free
Bars criminal service is subliminal
Been a bull internally but passive in reality

[Outro]
You don't know where the fuck I've been
You don't know what the fuck I've seen
Call you out imma call your team
Learned a lot from missing things like
Track Name: Who's God
[Verse 1]
I don't believe in god but we talked yesterday
I don't believe in god but I spoke yesterday
Believe in falls, I believe in hope
But how could G.O.D. let us die alone
How could D.O.G.'s call me a savage
Could a G.O.D. leave me left to salvage
Pieces left of a peace that left
Be your best but use your head
I don't believe in god but we spoke yesterday
Don't believe in god cause he's coming your way
I have less faith than the average man
Cause tears are weak and blood was shed
Guess I could've been a good dog (WOOF WOOF)
Sing some soul save myself like Mr. Julio
Childhood gone I remember dealing yu-gi-oh
It's so common, half of digger Dave
Raising this hood from a cobwebbed grave
All the nick teen times dry up they fade
Your wrist scars talk God calls us brave
But who was the one that really saved your faith
Track Name: Say Gnite to your Moms
[Verse 1]
Who's gonna get it next
Who's gonna be the best
Do you think you have a hit or do you rot and do you miss
I was missed by a few
Bullets, kids
Almost 35 at 16 in the rez
21 21 18 21
More in touch with a G cause it's 5 minus 1
Been sick in the head lately
I've gone baby crazy
Like a lady in the D.M.V, see
I could stab you with the point in my hair
I'm a swordfish, gettin' healthy eating oranges
Door hinge of course is, easy just to pour diss
Jawman's always banging on the drum kit
Not sour cause a lemon don't work right
Gears turn waking up past midnight
Clockwork I go 364 -
1 day every year I try to save a hoe
E-39 These numbers don't lie
Zero in a week bump to 180 in the ride
I'm a towel on the rack that's dry
Losing inspiration cause my fears won't lie
But like, I'm a Goonie, I never say die
Follow my path to Mr. Willy One Eye
I hate having secrets
I like to keep em but really i'd rather beat them

[Hook]
Better put your moms to sleep (Moms)
All the kids sneakin out the streets(Moms)
(Say gnite to your moms)
Better put your moms to sleep
Fool around, we get somethin to eat
We better Muffle that song
Better put your moms to sleep (Moms)
All the kids sneakin out the streets(Moms)
Say gnite to your moms
We be droppin em bombs(Moms)
We better Muffle that song

[Verse 2]
My mom a single parent
My bank account zero
My mom a single parent
I'm half super hero
Tip me in the jar so I can buy a muscle car
Burn it out in like a week and it crumbles in the yard
Said
Put your Halloween feelings in my Christmas cup
Dick ain't charity I dont GIVE a fuck
If your old and bold show me not what you're told
Stand against an army of American flows
I'm getting restless, young and full of soap
Melodrama meals got me colder than snow
18 years old but my mind is wide
Third trip in this shit with my open eyes
But
Slow your roll these hoes all like a belly roll
Wanna burn it off like diseases battle in the alamo
Albino like, writing for my own cause
Cost ain't nothing but another promise for the banka
Dead twisted short middle money maka'
Minimal profit shaka', not what you made huh?
Dine with crime dont be acting a bitch
When I move every mountin with the flick of the wrist
Yo it's biz
Yo mothafucka it's biz
That's all it is! IT's Biz!!

[Hook]
Better put your moms to sleep (Moms)
All the kids sneakin out the streets(Moms)
Say gnite to your moms (Moms)
Better put your moms to sleep
Fool around, we get somethin to eat
We better Muffle that song
Better put your moms to sleep (Moms)
All the kids sneakin out the streets(Moms)
Say gnite to your moms
We be droppin em bombs(Moms)
We better Muffle that song

[Outro]
Say gnite to your moms (Moms)
Say gnite to your moms (Moms)
Shit'll wake up your moms (Moms)
SAy gnite to your bombs
Track Name: Cranium
[Verse 1]
I've got a big ego cause I'm convinced that I don't have one
Writing stupid lyrics double crossing all the whack ones
My shadow's a scarecrow, I was born for this
Gotham doesn't need me I scare the fuck outta kids
I was a chunky kid looking like Boyardee
Now I’m shrouded in mystery like professor Moriarty
A hero in this tale cannonball to the unknown
Annihilate this planet bout to go Hulk-Hoge
Stay true to your roots
Spreading all that love because We are Groot
When I think I know it all i realize that I don't know shit
Extinct like a thesaurus rapper spitting it insipid
Hung around with my favourite kids
School was full of sentences
Wrote all of my essays and left, got sore appendages
Leaving this life that I've known for so long
Holy shit I'm such a fuck-up writing all these songs
Getting out on that horizon cause I wanna be Eastwood
Away from bad and ugly rez in the backwoods
But I wish that I could save it
I want you all to know that opportunities are wasting
Sail into a greater destiny so I can come back
And help my fellow warriors grow past the cracks
White birch for life, better than a cherry blossom
Scary monsters, harry potter sparking spells securing fathers
Open up your mind to Drain impossible
Over-thinking life as if we're stuck inside a hospital
In a Boeing, so simple cause I'm flying it
Your opinion's for sale but you know I ain't buying it

[Hook x2]
Gained a lot of pounds with these venom powered veins
When it rains felons reign now controlling brains
I just need an escape, an exit from this bullshit
Shredding myself to pieces, this sadness makes me write a thesis

[Verse 2]
I'm bout as basic as it gets
Like to stay home and fly the space plane jets
The shit just came into a clay world and moulded its nest
I'm asking why the fuck my life can be a god damn mess
Like does he do it in jest?
Or is a higher power granting time to invest
In writing novels of this shit, I'm still a broken record
Nobody has the time to hear me whine about my standards
Bi-langue but I don't talk French
As social as a music piece with four whole rests
This bitch had pissed me off once, someone I disliked
Shot her nine times to show that I do not invite
A darkness in my life, and I think that she will find
She ain't 50 cent so I don't think that we'll survive
But fuck it though, It only happened up here
An evil spirit lives inside of me I no longer fear
Track Name: Nessie's Lock
[Hook]
I don't want you to think
I don't want you to eat
I don't want you to sleep
Just consuming the beat
My name is carved in the seat
At your house, trick or treat
Gonna' get something sweet
Always practice my speech

[Verse 1]
I don't want my cracked lips snapping your interest
Building a raft to leave the island of misfits
Life a double feature so you better get your popcorn
Pockets getting colder when I drop another track though
Hit the reel, stopping bullets, blue steel
At your step on the corner past the burned down mill
Nip is flowing through the air and my mouth is in a drought
Taking deep breaths in an attempt to kill doubt
Here we go, hear you coming to the door
Concrete in my feet and I really wanna go
Run away and never see the door open just a peep
Pretty green eyes confused about me
Porch light on and our eyes do meet
It wasn't wise of me and I feel like a creep
But I just say hello, it's a really nice greet
I'm racing in my mind just before you speak

[Hook]
I don't want you to think
I don't want you to eat
I don't want you to sleep
Just consuming the beat
My name is carved in the seat
At your house, trick or treat
Gonna' get something sweet
Always practice my speech
I don't want you to think
I don't want you to die
I don't feel alright
Just consuming the beat
My name is carved in the seat
At your house, trick or treat
Gonna' get something sweet
Always practice my speech

[Verse 2]
On the couch all alone and we're watching Netflix
It was dark it was cold but I didn't have my mitts
Took my sweater off, said that she could wear it
Nah I ain't cold even though it was apparent
The glow of the screen, wasn't paying attention
In the corner of my eyes man I saw she was staring
Knew what she wanted, had to build up the nerve
Quick in like a second I turned to her
When we locked lips I was thinking Lock Ness
She was coming for me it was this I insist
That we lay for the night, it was fate, it was right
I could feel it in my bones that a love was in sight
But again I am an idiot an over-thinking lyricist
A clump or just a bitch bout as nice as ten cysts
Things is getting heated this episode is finished
Pick it up in the morning when the night is missing
Night is gone, when the night is gone

[Bridge]
Tell me please tell me please tell me what you from me
Is it love is it strange how this came to be
I miss the way that we talked how we ran so free
Can't you see can't you see that you've taken me
Nessie please Nessie Please I am hooked to you
We going under going under swimming to the moon
I'm so afraid so confused what you want from me
I think I love think I love this kinda being
Think I love

[Hook]
I don't want you to think
I don't want you to eat
I don't want you to sleep
Just consuming the beat
My name is carved in the seat
At your house, trick or treat
Gonna' get something sweet
Always practice my speech
I don't want you to think
I don't want you to die
I don't feel alright
Just consuming the beat
My name is carved in the seat
At the house, trick or treat
Gonna' get something sweet
Always practice my speech
Track Name: Purple Skies
[Verse 1]
Today's the day I start living my life
Recently seen I need to do what I like
No pressure from the parent
Singing for the pleasure
Being is a blessing
Dancing in the weather
Got nothing on my damn mind
Kids chilling on the deck when I drive by
Neighbourhood view, 10 barbecues
We go bowl, maybe dip in the pool
Flee from the issues, let go the misuse
A nice steak, double that Jones juice
Sun rises thinking bout your eyes and
In my arms so the moment never dies then
Wanna laugh now maybe cry later
In the colder months under those layers
But for now I'm gonna make it my right
To lay by the trees and enjoy the purple skies

[Hook]
Only looking to the sky like
The high life
Simple shit is all you need on the beat
Pass the drinks in the breeze
I'm living these dreams, now it ain't no tease

[Verse 2]
Thought I couldn't live all alone at last
Seems like everything's moving too fast
Raining in the morning loving in the evening
Beach front now I'm walking how you see it
Slowing down from the speed of life
I'll take a nice girl and we can spend the (Hey)
Daytime dreaming, boathouse living
Finally some peace had me sleeping in a minute
I'm fine to dine over roast this time
Now I'm getting mine unwinding from the bind
Recline in the back it's all fizzing in the past
Rush in the breeze by the sea at last
East coast never felt so nice
Your warm body never held so tight
Close calls are the best kinda type
Sunset driving got me psyched for life

[Hook]
Only looking to the sky like
The high life
Simple shit is all you need on the beat
Pass the drinks in the breeze
I'm living these dreams, now it ain't no tease

[Outro]
That's the perfect fucking day
With me - and Nessie
Track Name: The Pressure
[Verse 1]
Culprit of the flow that killed the whole show please
Turn me in cause I'm afraid of the things that I don't know
A no show bigger than blue eyes ultimo
Bringing in the crops more than cops hate cornrows
Stop a second so it all moves smooth now
Hungry hound, Bitches throw me a bone
What is a home didn't know what to say
When she came around the house told me don't be afraid
Stayed in the ward, some cake on the floor
On the kitchen in the shower feeling sore after hours like
Asking for a dollar, reading into misconceptions
Don't believe her if she hides who she's texting
Let's take a walk, let let's make a spot
Less vapour in the paper like you can't back out now
Anxious, backwards on the logic
Clawing on the wall so I get lost on the topic

[Hook]
Don't be a hater ju-just meet your maker
Never lose your own sight it's a fight against the majors
Try once, two times in the Third fourth
Good times when I swing back and forth
Forget about that bull shit
Trust that you can trust me
Show me what you owe me
Girl I'm never lonely
Don't be a hater just meet your maker
Never lose your sight it's a fight against the majors

[Verse 2]
We're like black and white, yin and yang, non-polite
Novels of my life came down to one pipe
She grabbed me insisting that I'm acting too uptight (Haha)
Enjoy the ultraviolet light
My life is too stale, I need some more nachos
Wine with the cheese I'm the opposite of flacko
Pounds like London, legs like a muffin
Suspicious eyes, they think I'm up to something
Eyes falling out, got the phantom limb
Son of Smokey the Bear, I guess I'm not a kid anymore
I'm lost, crashing and I'm footloose
Beneath the floorboards damn right i have some issues

[Hook]
Don't be a hater ju-just meet your maker
Never lose your own sight it's a fight against the majors
Try once, two times in the third fourth
Good times when I swing back and forth
Forget about that bull shit
Trust that you can trust me
Show me what you owe me
Girl I'm never lonely
Don't be a hater just meet your maker
Never lose your sight it's a fight against the majors

[Bridge]
I don't wanna go back
I don't wanna eat the cake
You tell me that you won't love me if I don't wanna shake
And I don't wanna be baked
And I don't wanna go back
I'm just shaking too much
Sh-sh-shaking too much
And I don't wanna go back
Cause she just wanted to kill you
And you just wanted to love her
Im gonna fry my eyes man
And eat you up she gonna burn my mind
I'm shaking too much
Sh-Sh Shaking too much

[Outro]
Don't be a hater ju-just meet your maker
Never lose your own sight it's a fight against the majors
Try once, two times in the third fourth
Good times when I swing back and forth
All She wanted to kill you
And You wanted to love her
That bitch is gonna fry your eyes
She just under disguise
She had wanted to kill you
You just wanted to love her
She gonna fry your eyes
Eat you and burn your mind
She gonna burn your mind
And burn your mind
I'm under pressure man and i'm just shaking too much
I'm under pressure man and im just shaking too much
Sh-Sh-Sh Shaking too much
Sh-Sh-Sh Shaking too much
Track Name: Imma Listen to Ya (ft. Red Suga)
[Hook]
Thats good imma listen to ya (ahh)
Imma listen to ya (ahh)
Imma listen to ya (ahh)
A lot of people talking shit but they never meet ya
Imma listen to ya (ahh)
Imma listen to ya (ahh)

[Verse 1]
Ain't no other mother-fuckers rapping in the maritimes
Ain't no other notealbe bankable kids writing rhymes
Call a doctor! Dizzy from the stress
Busy everyday they telling me that I got next
Album got me running quick from my home
Bags on my shoulders, eyes and bones
Spose my words dont match my clothes
I don't wanna be another one of those suckers who pose
Rapping like your 20 when the mirror says 40
On the fifth book but it's still the same story
This is mic-mac-ademics setting the bar to the illest
Take your questions up with Willis he'll tell you just what the deal is
and my,
Breath goes short imma different sort you must implore
My guts to speak and peak, Its a chore
To keep Away from these doubts that never cease

[Hook]
Thats good imma listen to ya (ahh)
Imma listen to ya (ahh)
Imma listen to ya (ahh)
Lotta people talking shit but they never meet ya (ahh)
Imma listen to ya (ahh)
Imma listen to ya (ahh)
Thats good shit imma listen to ya (ahh)
Imma listen to ya (ahh)
Imma listen to ya (ahh)

[Verse 2: Red Suga]
We on the verse with this, Behave the worst with this
Bout to kill it on the mic, Bring a hearse for this
Bring the fire like we dip up in some furnaces
And we bring it to you yo you know the works n shit
I'm in fine form, while you oddly shaped
We take a rest, that's a godly break
140 BPM that's a fast track
Told you we the shit like something in your ass-crack
Feel it in your gut like a hundred punches
The girl I'm with hotter than Moroccan hummus
And she wanna smash like we drop the tumbler
One, Zero, Zero, Zero, Talking numbers

[Hook]
That's good shit imma listen to ya
Imma listen to ya
Imma listen to ya
Lotta people talking shit but they never meet ya
Imma listen to ya
Imma listen to ya
Yo that's good shit, Imma listen to ya
Imma listen to ya
Imma listen to ya
A lot of people talking shit but they never meet ya
Imma listen to ya
Imma listen to ya

[Verse 3]
You gonna kill me today, 2k15
Steady with your aim cause I dissipate
Imma Mirage, No entourage
Haunting every biter, consuming their dreams
Dictating every screen, microwaving yo spleen
Big talk on the flip, ship might skip (might skip)
You think you're slick rick
But you're bitch is in my whip
Nowadays the block only call ya slick prick
Cause its rough around the edges
When your dagger takes a dip
I'm a pimp pass the lobster and the shrimp
Think you're T.K.O yo T.J.G say No
Ali a bitch ass if he run the mouth to the foot
And a cartweel starts drop the act n book
THe only think you took was a look all shook

[hook]
Thats good imma listen to ya (ahh)
Imma listen to ya (ahh)
Imma listen to ya (ahh)
Lotta people talking shit but they never meet ya (ahh)
Imma listen to ya (ahh)
Imma listen to ya (ahh)
Thats good imma listen to ya (ahh)
Imma listen to ya (ahh)
Imma listen to ya (ahh)

[Outro]
Lotta people talk shit but its all they know
Dont understand the next hit if it struck their blow
A flo' supposed to,
Decieve the senses and revive the glow
that was lost in an age of acting low
So circles coming on back when they smoke that dope
But shit im having good nights, have a good life
2016's on the next flight like
Track Name: Nothing
[Verse 1]
15 living off them big dreams
A little scruffy, Sewing the seams
Good evening by the snow, it's winter I mean,
Girl on my side but independent it seems
I did, nothing really great
Death had just begun to wake
Purple walls were a change
All I did to save the day,
My way, from the cranium, floating on that helium
Before an arm was cut in my delirium,
In the booth remixed explicit
Said I couldn't rap so I went out and I did it
Album and a mixtape, fuck this line
Generic is exhausting, fuck it I just rhyme
Draining away, double duchess daily
Hugging a stranger or killing a halo
I know it's not as bad as it seems
Organizing every track sitting waiting for tea
Pass through the gums each word is grime
Always saying what I can in case I die
I wasn't ready for the searchlight
Ready for the long nights
Fought hard, exercised my vocals
Said the dumbest shit, worked for free
Love the routine, the four-am scene
Traffic in the sky was the fire to me
Battle practice for the magic happening' daily
Used to flip burgers to Juicy
Dancing in uniform life like a movie
Not a word from the back of the class
Instrumental in my head instead of studying math
Weighed by fear, success interfered
Had so many goals that have now been completed
What's next for a kid like me (like me)
What's next for a kid like me (like me)
Track Name: Bullet
[Intro]
If you had the chance would you change or would you stay
Stick it to the man to make me change in any way
Baby been too much lady lately outta touch
Ever since I was a teen its always been too much

[Hook]
Came down to a statistic
Statistic
Sadistic
Hugs and kissing
Statistic
Ballistic
Two became the imprint
Nathan. You escaped this
You behaved through
My embraces
I will take the chance to apologize
For halting your time, halting your size

[Verse 1]
Never had a chance to even live on earth
Though he made me proud from the day he was birthed
Curly hair, dark hair, green eyed walker
Them high cheek bones, things gone farther
Suddenly a father, shit I had plans
Baby is my love but the mother's gonna sue
Mary best friends, the things they do
Won't even try to toss away my old boo
Enhaling good toxins, sobbing
Every night he goes to bed to my talking
16 I've lost my dreams
Gotta be the best damn dad I can be
Watch my friends graduate from the crowd
Holding lil Nathan, he's crying too loud
Guess that connection is strong in our brain
His tears roll down, we're one in the same

[Hook]
Came down to a statistic
Statistic
Sadistic
Hug and kissing
Statistic
Ballistic
Two became the imprint
If you had the chance would you change or would you stay
The choice to know the road of two paths, the way
The storybook ends does he live route one
When you took route two, or has the gavel rung

[Verse 2]
Would you dare to alter destiny
Dare to let go of the only memory
A consequence of carelessness
Knew what I was doing but it couldn't stop this
Wishing for an out, can't abandon my son
Leave him with a mom who wouldn't even give a fuck
Fill his head with bullshit, god I don't want this
Should have proceeded with extra caution
Please wake me up this is HELL god dammit!
Damn you for this should've been born in bliss
Takin the piss outta me, she, he, be, see, so
Keen to escape my grim reality

[Hook]
Came down to a statistic
Statistic
Sadistic
Hugs and kissing
Statistic
Ballistic
Two became the imprint
Nathan. You escaped this
You behaved through
My embraces
I'm taking this chance to apologize
For halting your time, halting your size

[Verse 3]
Didn't do my job and took to alcohol
Cheque to cheque living's taken my soul
Ex is getting more custody of the kid
He loves me much but still insists
The robbing will stop, the drugs will halt
Pushing for 30 my larynx is gone
Every single night I don't know if he'll be home
I've given up on discipline, Nathan's just gone
Now the system's got me lost on a dirty old road
Forgotten like god. The cycle goes on
Creator had a path and this wasn't meant to be
I crave for the days of 2003
Now the cuts on me, frames are blurry
Loaded 22 in my hand always
S'was all in my head when I heard that pop
9 months later you coulda called me pops

[Hook x2]
Came down to a statistic
Statistic
Sadistic
Hug and kissing
Statistic
Ballistic
Two became the imprint
If you had the chance would you change or would you stay
The choice to know the road of two paths, the way
The storybook ends does he live route one
When you took route two, or has the gavel rung
If you had the chance would you change or would you stay
Stick it to the man to make me change in any way
Baby been too much lady lately outta touch
Ever since I was a teen its always been too much
Track Name: Shin Deep
[Verse 1]
Want a purple people sweater
Mind is as a blizzard
I've been fucking with the weather
Since last week seen em die on the screen
Ignoring connections
Ignoring affection
In fact education ain't a blessing
Testing my ability to get minds stretching
I wake up - sit at home - don't wanna speak
Force my eats- leaving home's like a treat
Sick inside my head without a bone or a peach
6 weeks gone since my last run of sleep
Dehydrated on some colour in the beat
I'm strong but i know times is weak
Times I'm in are cutting hard cutting deep
Derelict reflects in what I see
Autumn changing colours all you talk about is fleek
What's chic your desktop or living on the street
Sunscreen out burning on life's beach
Red to the bone - culture deceased
Obsessed with the drama, water to the shins
Sub-tweeting rumours to forget your own sins
You the same kids who think prison rape is funny
Claiming men or women kill your vibe i think its something
To laugh at, depends, you don't know suffering
I'm wondering the thundering, ego needs buffering
A waste of time put my mind to these finds
But fuck me right, I'm 19 and might be
Believing in some cynicism brought before my life
Losing every second. impale me with your spikes

[Hook x2]
Now - just like everyone else
Now - just like everyone else
Now - i feel left on the shelf
Pow - gon be gettin some help
Soon.

[Verse 2]
Raps a big fucking joke
Wont be loving me because I don't smoke dope
I hoped for wiser days but faith ain't great
Wallowing in shitty poetry up on a slate
Following my heroes all for pete's sake
Being a disciple I'm in touch with the hate
Holidays -
Come thinner than slim jims
Paper rap filling my tolerance to the brim
In dim - see me rolling and twisting
Waking up without a fucking feeling but instead
There's a gap, hole, did what I'm told
It was crushing to be seen as a drone
My mind drives for the blame
Wishing in secret that i stay the same
There's a gold mine in whining all the time
Dodge my problems never been sublime
When I'm alone on the street
Danger getting closer and I'm thinking on my feet
Shaky leg, suffering, internal rummaging
Drained to the point that now my legs hovering
Track Name: Running From Answers & Coming Back Home
[Verse 1]
They said I'd live forever as if now was never
Ignoring every kinda situation that was better
Gaining every pound every weight on my chest
Caved in all the strength that I truly had left
In my cavity's a quarry
Wake up in a cold sweat, blood is on my story
And I tell myself, hey I'm sorry
If this is my peak what the fuck is forty
But now I'm so gone down and out
Eyes are turning onto me when I scream and shout
I wanna tear into these walls, Rip my muscles raw
Bleed until the ghosts stop telling me I'm wrong
Shipping me off, bird's left the nest
Failure piles up I can't get no rest
It's still your voice that I hear
Some pleasure into pain from these hearts I steal
You know I still love it and it's a flaw of mine
Collecting everything that i can get through the grapevine
I swear these feelings have been literally killing me
Nothing's is free I've been handling it shittily
Waving a white flag oh so readily
I'm all bark when the shots are hitting steadily
So I sat back closed my eyes
Willing for somebody who could save my life

[Verse 2]
And then there's Nessie
mother-fucking Nessie
Always in my mind in my skin and she messing
Blessing my dick, my heart my time
But she never exists, my idealized
Thoughts on love, I want what I won't have
A flawless individual to be my other half
It was all about me! T. Tired of seeing
Myself all day on a throne at its peak like

[Verse 3]
Oh I get it, you're wise and smart
Maybe the greatest since hip hop's start
Amazing how the words and rhymes create your art
Of an innocent little kid playing your part
Listen to me for a change
I know you're a phony
Nobody's gonna find you, you're not even lonely
Native, Reservation, middle class
Such a disgrace somebody beat your ass
Broke up with 3 girls, please tell me more
Kick in the ribcage of this dead horse
Off the course of course dropping dollars on the porch
New beats in your head, having problem's a sport
From my discourse, You're an issue whore
A little taste of this glory now you're begging for more
You sad sack of shit, why do you bother
Recall the last time you said you loved your brother
Sister always in support, what do you utter
Mumble this mumble that and nothing discovered
Jump off of a cliff, make my body split
Your ugly soul needs a paradigm shift
Tryna get fame so hard it's pathetic
When Tristan is the one who won't allow an exit!
No wonder that your personality is see through
Most times I don't wanna even wanna BE you

[Verse 4]
That was the old me growing up on Sewell Street
Never left my zone, never saw the whole world
So quick heard my laugh, it was fading in the past
Night is growing darker, the shade didn't last
Wasn't feeling safe till I wrote this song
Never knew my place in a land so wrong
But that was just time catching up
I love the real me and I'm not giving up

[verse 5]
Past abuse and pity from misuse
Still dreaming about arena's I been wanting since blue’s clues
Holding the fuse, lighter is now lit
Fuck this old shit I know life's a bitch
So imma take hold and break my mother-fucking mould
Kill every demon holding deep onto soul
Powerful anxieties I'll use to project
Crumble every mountain with the speed of a jet
I know I fucked up I kept these issues
A lot of pain chose my body to go through
Every man finds himself in the rain
Want glory and fame, or a diamond ring
Can't blame anyone for having a dream
I stand up no matter how it seems
My loved ones might suffer for me
So i gotta have a reason to get up and eat
No matter how i feel, I choose real
Romanticizing sadness can fucking kill
Seen it all from death to glory
Relics of the past wishing I could say sorry
For the days that are never coming back
Growing up fast that drove me to rap
Forgetting bout the image of the native in the roads
Reserve's all I got Mi'kmaq bros

[Verse 6]
So here the fuck is my story
Beaten to the ground and I'm not even sorry
Words from a dumb fat native in the rez
A bitch who loves art who was told to take meds
A cruel soul whose love ran away
Never self hating till the sky turned K
Blue camo, prince hoodie with some dark jeans
Keeping the chaos at bay with some oldies
Duke to Dell, Smith and Q-tip
Smile to myself when I change how you step
My pride and joy to pull back the curtain
Here's the world that I see in first person